I have never been left so breathless, so empty. It feels as though my very being has been ripped from my cold body, all I feel is the painful sting of emptiness. Words cannot explain the hallow emotion that I feel now.....I have forgotten what life is, and how it works.... Lifeless piano keys are played before me, their notes linger in the air still and lonely, just as I feel now.

Its almost like watching a movie, everyone seems so happy and every moment passes by with blinding speed, and I cannot grasp it. My eyes are no longer red and puffy from the burning tears, theyre now still even though new tears flood from the pool of pain that drowns my heart. I gasp for breath every now in then, I can feel the horrid reality squeezing away at my lungs, strangling me slowly. It is a pain that I feel that cannot be healed because it is a wound that is constantly torn open by the hands of borken lovers....

Fighting the growing torture is almost useless, for even though I struggle above the constant waves of pain they always find some way to swell and crash over my head. No one has offered me a hand to help pull me from this fate, nor has anyone jumped in to drag me from the empty darkness....

Its almost like dying and then reliving the same terror the next day. And at night when finally my body gives to the dark hours, my dreams are of nothing but the suffering that has attacked my soul. Sometimes I wake with a start searching for his face, knowing that he is gone because of my weakness, and now I have left myself with no protector, no hope... Other times I wake to the morning with tears streaming down my face, and I dread the painful day ahead...knowing that I am alone....


How empty eternity is with out a soul to share it with.....